I've been out of work since June 30th and I don't feel like myself anymore. I dealt with being on an "extended vacation" and managed to get some other things done but not having a job has really turned me into a different person and I'm not sure I enjoy it too much. I sleep for hours at a time after I have initially woken up in the morning. I eat constantly. Mostly nibbling on things like chips and candy and drinking excessive amounts of sugary drinks. I knew beforehand that being able to show up to work and trying my hardest was what gave me part of my identity but good lord... I never knew just hot much it played into my day to day emotional state. Sure, it was nice at first to have some days off but nearly a month of being away from the office and my students has put me in a place I'm not too happy about. And even though I'm surrounded by family and friends who I can reach out to I can't help but feel like something big is missing and it leaves me feeling completely alone. I'm not saying I'm going down another emotional spiral into "whoa is me" territory but I can't help but feel like I've lost something that made me equal or at least on the same platform as the rest of the world. I hope this issue is resolved soon so that I can find the piece that's missing from my soul.
XO.
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